The tears are for real
Many months ago....well, it does seem like many many months ago....hubby and I tried to train Rachel to sleep through the night. After 3 nights of long long crying, and lots of throwing up after crying, we gave up. (we have to blame one of our neighbours as well, as he shouted at us to shut up!) So, I have to resort to waking up at night again, and popping her my breasts. I realised that she is taking me as her pacifier, but as I am so so very tired, I am taking the easy way out by letting her do it.
Now that we are going back to Malaysia, I know that I will have to wean R off the breasts-pacifier thingy, if I intend to go back to work. And instead of starting to do this at night, I thought I will try this weaning attempt out during the day, before her nap.
Today's DAY ONE:
10am, Rachel's naptime: Nurse her, and make sure she does not fall asleep. She did not.
After nursing, tried to pat R to sleep. Instead, she was jumping and crawling and pulling herself up to stand on the nightstand...Still very much awake...
11am, one hour after normal naptime: Still very much awake, and jumping up and down....but a wee bit cranky.
12pm, "pulling my hair out"-time, "near to giving up" time : Cranky and refuse to sleep. crying occasionally...
12.15pm, "me given up" time : gave up trying to pat her to sleep, as she keeps on doing "downward facing-dog" yoga position and crying... put her to breasts, and within a minute, she is asleep.....
Sighhh.....not a very good start....
Night time weaning off breasts:
7.30pm, sleeping time : Rubbing eyes, scratching head - signs of wanting to go to bed. So, nurse R, trying to keep her awake. After nursing, pat her to soothe her to sleep.....Refuses to do so...crawling about in the room. Crying and crying and crying.....Daddy came in....took pity of Rachel, carried her about, and asked me to nurse her to sleep.....sighhhh.....
8pm "pulling my hair out"-time: Pat and pat and pat......
8.15pm "arrrrrgggggh" time : pat and pat and pat....cry and cry and cry..... (the tears seem to be real, for her and for me)...finally, she is asleep....
9.10pm "wailing" time : R is awake.....and I go in, and started patting again....took me another half hour to put her back to sleep......another half hour of wailing....sighhhh....
...and this went on every other hour till she woke up at 6.30am.....
the tears are definitely for real....for both hubby and I....sob sob sob.......
Now that we are going back to Malaysia, I know that I will have to wean R off the breasts-pacifier thingy, if I intend to go back to work. And instead of starting to do this at night, I thought I will try this weaning attempt out during the day, before her nap.
Today's DAY ONE:
10am, Rachel's naptime: Nurse her, and make sure she does not fall asleep. She did not.
After nursing, tried to pat R to sleep. Instead, she was jumping and crawling and pulling herself up to stand on the nightstand...Still very much awake...
11am, one hour after normal naptime: Still very much awake, and jumping up and down....but a wee bit cranky.
12pm, "pulling my hair out"-time, "near to giving up" time : Cranky and refuse to sleep. crying occasionally...
12.15pm, "me given up" time : gave up trying to pat her to sleep, as she keeps on doing "downward facing-dog" yoga position and crying... put her to breasts, and within a minute, she is asleep.....
Sighhh.....not a very good start....
Night time weaning off breasts:
7.30pm, sleeping time : Rubbing eyes, scratching head - signs of wanting to go to bed. So, nurse R, trying to keep her awake. After nursing, pat her to soothe her to sleep.....Refuses to do so...crawling about in the room. Crying and crying and crying.....Daddy came in....took pity of Rachel, carried her about, and asked me to nurse her to sleep.....sighhhh.....
8pm "pulling my hair out"-time: Pat and pat and pat......
8.15pm "arrrrrgggggh" time : pat and pat and pat....cry and cry and cry..... (the tears seem to be real, for her and for me)...finally, she is asleep....
9.10pm "wailing" time : R is awake.....and I go in, and started patting again....took me another half hour to put her back to sleep......another half hour of wailing....sighhhh....
...and this went on every other hour till she woke up at 6.30am.....
the tears are definitely for real....for both hubby and I....sob sob sob.......
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