Guilts of being a mom

Since Rachel was born, I always think that I am quite good in this motherhood thing. I make sure she has the best of all that we can provide…..breast milk for 13 months….good sturdy clothes….full attention….fun wooden toys……solid food made with tender loving care…fun school…..good medical attention…..organic raisins….. EVERYTHING!!!!!! I thought I had everything under control…..until recently…..

It’s not like I flopped big time….I hope I will never do that, when it comes to Rachel…….but there were little little things that I think I overlooked……..OH NO!!!!!! sob sob….. I am being a wee bit dramatic here………

I forgot Rachel’s Deepavali’s party at school…so, she was dressed in her uniform when all other kids at school were in their party gear…..

I overlooked the school note about early dismissal on the last day of school….so, the teacher had to accompany her for an additional hour before MIL picked her up from school….

I kept on forgetting that she had this little wound on her tongue…anything acidic will cause pain….and I always forget and feed her vitamin C…which caused her to yelp in pain EVERYTIME!!!!!!

I always take for granted that she can take any chilly condition…..so, I always forget that she needs a jacket when she dresses light at night and also in shopping malls…..

I am delaying the “going pamper-less at night” process as I am too lazy in case if accidents DO happen…..

I think I better stop listing down any more “flops”… don’t really want Rachel to read this motherhood failure part……..

Moreover, the longer the list gets, the more upset and guilty I will feel…….